Wednesday, July 29, 2009
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Here's Mat downstairs..that wood flooring above him is what's holding the mess in the picture above.
The front sitting room. We've never hung out in here..but it's nice. We live in the kitchen and upstairs in the room we're staying in (it's air-conditioned)...I haven't taken any pictures of upstairs and didn't realize it until now :) I'll have to do that before we leave for memories sake.
Okay..so that's our resting place while we're here. Can't complain. It's quite here, and secure. Can't beat that.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
I have no doubt that God's hands are in both of these adoptions. And that His timing is perfect..even when it seems so out of sorts to me :) We know He lead us to Levi. We know He put things on hold for the short 3 months so that He could put His plan into action and open the doors & our hearts to Isaac. We also know that the amount of loss we felt at that time contributed to us being willing to move forward with his adoption again when God opened back up those doors. Without that hold, Isaac wouldn't be ours. We didn't plan on 2 adoptions & we know He answered our pleas to make the way for Levi to still be able to come home. We know this was His plan..cause it wasn't ours :) I'm still amazed to this day that someday he'll be home. I can't tell you the thoughts that ran thru our heads the morning we got the call asking us if we still wanted Levi. Before we commeted to Isaac, we ran over in our heads what we would do if those doors were opened back up to us. We we're so hesitant to commit to another child because of that "what-if ". But we knew there were still hundreds of children in need. We prayed passionatly for God to guide us and for us to have willing hearts to follow where He would lead. We didn't consider children in Ukraine because of this long trip..But when Andrea sent us Isaac's picture..we knew we we're looking at our son. We felt at complete peace and were able to say yes to comitting to him within a 1/2 hour of first seeing his photo from Andrea. I can't explain the peace that was felt~and there wasn't the fear that by commiting to him we we're losing our Levi's chance. But I think we honestly didn't expect to be privlaged with having our second chance with Levi. We were so happy to be able to say "yes!" when it was offered, but we wondered..."How? We don't have the means for two adoptions, let alone one." God promises that He will provide and reward the obediant heart. What's hard is grasping that promise and trusting it wholeheartly. My friend Kelly is going thru the ever so expected trial of doubt right now in the apotion of her 2 girls. I think we all go thru this trial. The enemy relishes in seeing our faith wavier and he feeds on it. This morning, before I read Kelly's blog I was reading from the book of Joshua and pleading my own case before the Lord for our son, Levi, to be able to come home soon & for God to make the way. I prayed for Him to reassure my heart and renew my faith that He will make the way. I prayed for His peace to flood my heart about all my fears..including my fear of not ever going home again (it's been along time here & I miss home & my kids like I've never known I could) In His goodness He gave my heart the peace it needed. I want to share What the Lord gave me to my friend Kelly and any others who might be in our trial boat of waivering faith..
I've been studing the book of Joshua while here and am now coming to the end where Joshua's an old man and he's aware that not all the promised land has been conqured as of yet...Joshua 18 has Joshua stunnded by the Israelies..why are they not trusting in God? Haven't they been witness to all He's done for them?
In verse 3 he asks them "How long are you going to wait before clearing out the people living in the land which the Lord your God has given you?" He wants the Israelies to grasp God's promises to them..he wants them to have faith that the Lord will make the way for them to be able to fullfill what He has called them to do. The battles they need to fight are already won, this is already their land! He doesn't give the promise that it will be easy and trial free to gain..but He does promise to make the way. And He promises that the task He has called them to will be fullfilled by them with His guiding, as long as they keep their trust & faith in Him. He also promises they will reap the reward of their faith in Him. From chapters 19-22 The nation of Israel did just that and in chapter 22:4 after a long time of many battles having been fought Joshua calls the tribes together and declares their victory. "..The Lord our God has given us success & now rest as He promised He would. So go home now to the land given to you by the Lord...love the Lord and follow His plans for your lives. Cling to Him and serve Him enthusiastically.'So Joshua blessed them and sent them home."
In each of our lives God gives us all very different battles that He has already won...What He calls us to do is simply trust that. We have to stay strong in our faith & our fights for our children. Not everyone is called to this battle, and not everyone will answer this call when it's given. But for those of us who do, God promises to make the way. He promises to reward our obediance with the smile of a child...our child, the one He destined for us from the begining of time. Why do we doubt our Almighty God?! I think of Peter sinking before the Lord whose walking on the water...Peter whose looking right at the Lord, seeing the miracle in front of him..and even then, how easy it was for Peter to be swayed by the stormy waters around him..how easy it was for his faith in the Lord whose standing on those stormy waters in front of him to faulter. "Oh ye, of little faith, why do you doubt Me?" Thank the Lord for those beautiful hands that He so willingly out streaches to us as we sink. May today be the day we're all able to grasp God's promise that He will make the way, in His perfect timing for both us and our children. He knows what He's doing..now we just have to trust that :)
I love you Levi. Luv, mama
So here are our attempts to get our first family picture together..Isaac's cute, huh? Isaac's first pictures with a mama & papa who love him beyond words :)
Mat didn't let us know he was taking the picture in this one.
My turn trying to take the picture..but my arm wasn't quite long enough..
Isaac looks great here! But, dang it!..Papa's missing...Opps!
Well, I guess we'll try later :)
With our morning visit over Mat & I head back to our home away from home to wait for our next visit. When we come back our attorney is waiting for us & Isaac is dressed nice. It's passport picture time! It's Isaac's first time out the gate and he's thrilled!! Papa has the honor of caring him over the threshold & out into a world Isaac doesn't even know exsists.
It's also his first time to ride in a "machine" (Russian for car). He seemed a little scared at first. But was okay in no time. There's no child car seats in Ukraine so Isaac was free to sit between me and the orphanage director. Papa's in the front with our attorney.
So here's our first picture as a family with Isaac's name officially changed..It's a done deal & he's ours :) That was great to type :) On the advisement of our facilitator we took Isaac back to the orphanage until we finish doing paper work. This was the first time Isaac cryed when we took him back and he pulled and pulled at the hands of his caretaker to follow us out the door. It killed us. We've decided to allow him to stay their only 1 more night while we gather the things we'll need for him to be home with us..cloths, undies, food and such. On Monday we're springing him from that joint! We can't wait and think he'll be happy too :)
Our Ayla, Rubee, Zekiel, Naomi & Eli...We miss you and can't wait to be home all together to be able to have our complete family...a real family photo...taken. Enjoy your weekend with grandpa and Beverly. We love you and we'll call you tonight. HUGS.
Our Levi, we long for the day God brings us together as one. Your loved and thought of daily. HUGS to you too little guy.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Our Big 12 years & 1 week old Ayla with Eli..he looks sad :( Ayla said he's been calling out Mama & signing for Papa ;( ...Can't wait to be home with them all again.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
We had another great surprise...we're the first family to adopt a child with DS from this region~ In honor, the judge waived our 10 days!!! Isaac can come home with us next Saturday!! The judge was kind, and wished us the best of luck. He said Mat was a good man to love his family and I was a good women to love them too. Such unexpected kindness that was really moving to us both. :) Afterwards our facilitators took us to see Isaac and they we're able to go in and talk more to the director who let them know they have 6 more babies at the orphange with DS!! Now these children have the same chance Isaac had..to have thier families find them :)
Isaac has really warmed up to us in the last couple of day. On Wednesday he let Mat hold for the whole time we were with him! (total of 3 hours) and even wanted Mat to not put him down :) I brought grapes to eat and he LOVES them! We brought him a little water bottle for him and he drank the whole thing down in a matter of minutes! I think because the water here isn't safe for drinking he must not get it often. His spit was really thick (eeww), but after his bottle of water and a bunch of grapes it was good :) I don't think the children are given a bunch of fruit, it's one of the more costly things at the market. Breads seem to be the thing they eat most. (Ukrainians make some wonderful bread I have to say)
Here's Isaac not wanting to be put down by Papa :)
He usually holds my hand while Papa holds him. Yesterday morning though, he let me hold him!!! He reached his arms up to me and hugged me while we walked :) Then he searched my bag, found more grapes (I brought more since he liked them so much the day before) and stayed contint in my arms while he shoved his mouth full and dripped grape juice all over me :) It was great and my arms felt wonderful being able to hold him :) He even gives us hugs now :) I'm so glad he's becoming happy and comfortable with us.
what a great couple of days:) We got to talk to our kids~much, much needed teir excited to have Isaac be coming home. They've been staying with my brother and sister-in-law during the week and with their gandpa on the weekends, with a Monday visit with their Auntie Gen and grandma. It'll be so good to be home. We can't wait. For now, we start our running around for our last of the paper chase to be able to take our little guy home. :) We're so blessed! Thank you all for your prayers, they've gotten us thru some hard days.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Here he comes..
& now he see's us :)
FACT ABOUT ISAAC:
Levi...I love you and can't wait to meet you and make a list :)